That is pretty pathetic.
But it is all I can muster in time and energy right now.
I think this might be as good as it gets for awhile too.
Since I found out I was preggers in March, my mind has been racing with "The Lasts".
The Last things we can do as a family of 3.
The Last things we can do to assure Hollis she is God's most perfect gift to us-that she will never be replaced.
The Last gifts of time and attention we can bestow upon her before we make room for more love in our hearts and home.
Sometimes, "The Lasts" can keep me up at night with worry and anxiety and guilt, to be honest.
Or it can make me grin from ear to ear when one of my friends with many, many children reassures me that a sibling is one of the greatest gifts you can give a child.
I love that thought.
Taking Hollis to Conner Prairie for their Halloween celebration has been our family tradition for 4 years now.
The entire time we were there on Sunday night, I kept thinking about how this activity may not make "The Last" list, but it will certainly be different next year.
She was buried in the hay the whole time.
I don't think she saw a thing.
I kept thinking-please God don't let this child wake up with nightmares tonight.
And if she does, just make sure it is during one of my 404 trips I make to the bathroom each night.
Maybe I should label "The Lasts" the "Just Differents"
Yes.
I like that much much better.
I was just thinking about this in bed last night! Thinking you've had this child alone for 5 1/2 years and what that would be like, but also, thinking, WOW, she will be such a great help for you vs. a 2 year old sibling would have been! And most likely will deal with the sibling jealousy much better since she's old enough to "reason with" now. (I use those words lightly as we all know). :)
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